Thursday, September 26, 2013

A Single Note

When time slips by unnoticed
Dangling by a string
We barely feel its presence
Its song we hardly sing
But you, my frend, have heard it
You've matched its beats with stride
A note I've been in your song
I hold that close with pride

Monday, September 23, 2013

Complete


You fall like rain upon my heart
Each drop refreshing my soul
My mind finds in you a new start
And now my life can be whole
You see past the flaws that bind me
Tearing down the walls I’ve made
Baffling my norm consistently
A new foundation is laid
Oh please stay a while and don’t leave
Though you say you never will
But why I can hardly conceive
That someone can sit so still
With your hand in mine so tight
Worries cast, I know this is right

Friday, September 20, 2013

These Numbers

Separately, they're fine
I don't mind them one bit
On sheets of green paper
I could use more of it
But when they stand in line
And want to rearrange
That's when my mind goes blank
My affections then change
The only thing I feel
Towards them becomes wrath
And that is what happens
When I am faced with math
If only I could send
The effort that I spent
On all of these words here
To learn where numbers went
It might improve my work
Or make me really sick
Oh how I do despise
What's called arithmetic.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Conundrum

I should have known when he smiled what it meant, what I was getting myself into.  His daring eyes inviting me in, doing their best to take me away.  It was then, that perfect moment that it was best to leave, to turn back, but I was captivated and rooted to where I stood.  But at that precise point in time a scream broke me of my reverie.  I blinked and decded Panera over McDonalds, leaving the clown in a conundrum: a sad face with a happy meal.

Monday, September 16, 2013

What's This?

           The world teaches that there are reactions to every action.  It also teaches that some actions are acceptable while others aren't.  I would like to add that some actions will never make sense even while the person is performing them.  It may feel right but when asked to explain how it works the person may fumble for words or might simply smile and shrug.  We all experience it at some point, have grown up with a sample of it, but when it’s the right time, we all feel it at its capacity and are driven by its energy. 
      What is this feeling?
      We claim that it hits us in a mere moment and is unshakable   We recognize its presence but can’t comprehend its substance.  We can live it out in minute and grand gestures but can fail to explain our motives.
      What is this feeling?
      Love.  Not just simple love, though that might not even exist, but unconditional.  I would dare to say that real, true love can only be unconditional.  When the desires for ourselves are outweighed by those we have for others.  We welcome pain when it means that it is shielded from another.  There is no sacrifice too great, no distance too far, nor time too long that could dissuade us.  No fault too large, no past too dark, no words too grand.  Love conquers all.  And in that indescribable moment when we feel and know all of these things to be true for this one person the eyes of our soul are widened and can never be the same.  We no longer live for ourselves alone, but are joined in heart to that person.
      That is love.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

A Page

Mind is blank
Claw the air
Gasp for depth
Nothing’s there
Feel the void
See the white
Stretch for words
Out of sight
Close the eyes
Stop the heart
There it is
Now to start
Smile intact
Looking down
What once was lost
My page has found

Thursday, September 12, 2013

What is Your Response?

How do you normally respond to a child or even an adult who doesn’t know how to read?  It seems simple in question but the answer might indeed be more difficult to establish.  When it’s been so long ago since you yourself learned how to form words with the scattered letters on a page, it’s hard to imagine someone not knowing how.  How does one even function without the ability to read?  A vast window of knowledge and opportunity is closed to the individual who can not grasp this part that enriches the life. 

Again, I ask, how do you treat such a person?  Is it with pride that you point out their failings?  Do you scoff at their ignorance?  Encourage their inner doubt?  Hoist yourself up above them and look down with superiority?  Do you consider how the person came to be in that situation or do you condemn them for their circumstance?  What is your course of action?  Or do you have one?

How do you normally respond to a person who doesn’t know Christ?  This question appears so much more involved than the actual answer.  No matter how long ago the moment was that you decided to trust Him with your life, you somehow find it difficult to remember how it came to be.  You realize how hopeless life is and can feel without Him in your life and often wonder how anyone can live without Him.  So much of the world doesn’t make sense unless seen through the filter of Christ.

But then how do you treat those people?  Those souls who have never met the Savior who took you from sin to salvation?  Do you stand taller in comparison, knowing you have something they don’t?  Do you smirk when they fall short, seeking desperately to fill a void that you yourself once had?  Do you condemn them for a belief that is false but since never contested, is held closely?  Does your heart go out to them, or do you shake your head in disappointment at their lack of knowledge or contentment?  What is your course of action?  Or do you have one?

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

For You, My Friend

Just dropping a note to say hi 
I’m sad how much time has gone by 
Since I have been close to your face 
The one I can never replace 
Not one single day can skip past 
Without ending up like the last 
My mind wanders right back to you 
And all the fun things that we’d do 
Your hand may be just out of reach 
Like the ocean’s stretch for the beach 
But I’ll always look in my heart 
And see where you left me a part 
Of yourself to last me the days 
Until once again we cross ways 
So fear not, dear one, we will wait 
I will one day pass through your gate 
We’ll laugh again, our hearts will mend 
For you will always be my friend 

Monday, September 9, 2013

sun meets earth

The sun, it seems, is shy today
The cloud's her closest friend
The jealous wind blows him away
Her rays can now descend
To touch the earth and warm the ground
The long lost friends unite
No greater bond was ever found
Or more lovely a sight.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

The Hole in the Fence

The eye showed through the planks of wood and disappeared again.  She saw it several times in the half hour she was out there.  Whenever she caught the eye in hers, it would leave and she would smile.  And so it was.
            The next day was quite the same.  She laid out her blanket and set out her cookies and lemonade.  She passed them out to the unseen friends surrounding her and then she waited.  The sun was very bright that morning and the ants were just coming up from their hills to see what was for breakfast.  Callie had told her she should invite the eye to join them for cookies but the little girl waved the suggestion away.  Callie was always telling her what to do.  She instead looked to Cory, who always supported her thoughts and had a positive outlook on everything.  He said that if the eye wanted to come it would come and that she wasn’t being unkind by not inviting something that had never even given its name.  She agreed and it was with a head held high that she poured the lemonade and discussed not so quietly with her friends what they should do that day.  Conner stole Cory’s cookie when his head was turned and then nodded eagerly to the idea of going on a safari.  Conner loved animals, especially the mean ones. 
            And there it was.  She had begun to watch the fence very carefully after the first five minutes.  The little eye did not disappoint.  It looked straight into hers and then vanished once again.  Maybe it was the sugar cookies her mother had made from scratch, or perhaps that Callie was being especially pushy, but she felt a distinct feeling that she should approach the eye today. 
            She stood up and her friends stopped talking.  They stared as she quietly began the walk towards the fence.  She wondered what the eye’s name was and if it was friendly.  She could almost feel Callie’s reassuring gaze on her back and also hear Cory’s shaking head.  She hoped the eye’s owner was nice.  It was almost as if she knew it just a bit, like a person she had met many times but only in passing; not having an opportunity to converse just yet.  She stepped over the remnants of the campfire from the day before and dodged the tent that was fighting to stand against the subtle breeze. 
            And finally she made it.  The hole was very small and only big enough for an eye to peek through.  She stood a few feet away wondering whether she should ask the eye to come out or if looking through it herself would be rude.  While her brain struggled with this decision the eye appeared again except this time it left almost instantly.
            “Mr. Eye?” she whispered.
            A rustling from behind the fence told her the eye had not left but was merely hiding.  She tiptoed up to the crack in the panels and slowly brought her face to the fence.
            “Mr. Eye, it’s okay.  My name’s Casey,” her eye blinked and focused on the world beyond the fence.  There was no grass, just pavement and a little bicycle in the far corner.  She did not immediately see the eye’s owner but after some difficulty, she looked down and saw a patch of curly brown hair practically hugging the fence.
            “There you are!”  Casey exclaimed. 
The hair jumped and fell back revealing the person beneath; a little boy with big blue eyes.
Casey smiled and made to move towards the boy then painfully remembered the wood between them.  “What’s your name?” she asked, massaging her forehead and still trying to keep her eye to the hole.
The boy stared unblinkingly at Casey’s eye.  A moment passed before he said quietly, “Theo.”
             “That’s a cool name.  I’ve never met a Theo before. Do you like your name?”
             The boy named Theo finally blinked but didn’t seem to know what else to say.  Casey noticed a roly poly beginning to climb his hand.
             “I was about to go on a safari if you want to come,” she offered.  The fact that he wasn’t speaking only intrigued her more and she wondered how he might be when confronted with a lion.
             Theo took a wild look at the door that led into his house and then back again at Casey.  A smile crept over his face and he nodded.
“Great!”  Casey jumped back from the fence and began eagerly searching for a way for Theo to come over.  There was a loose board that the two of them were able to manipulate enough for him to get through.  He squeezed between the planks and fell into the grass.  He sat for a moment, taking in the new surroundings.   Casey held out her hand to hoist him up.  Theo stared at the hand for a small second before grabbing it.  Casey pulled him to his feet and then wasted no time in telling of the journey that lay before them.
             “There will be lions!”  she exclaimed, watching his face for any sign of fear.  Instead, the boy’s eyes crinkled as his face broke into a smile. 
              “I like lions,” he said bravely.
              “Good! Don’t forget your ‘noculers and your ray gun, it’s going to be a bumpy ride.”
              The morning had faded into noon and a sharp voice was ringing over the jungle, calling for the Adventurer Theo to return home.
              “I gotta go,” he said to Casey, handing her the slingshot that had defeated the polar bear.  “See you later!”  And he dashed off to the fence with the hole in the one board.
              Casey sat down in the grass, staring at where her new friend had disappeared.  A rumble from her stomach reminded her of the cookies she had left at her picnic.  She hoped her friends hadn’t eaten them while she was gone.  But the cookies were there all by themselves, it was her friends that had gone. 
              She gathered the cookies and decided to go in for more lemonade.  Not a thought was spent on when they would return.  She was already dreaming up the next adventure for her and her new friend, Theo the Eye. 

Saturday, September 7, 2013

I've Been Waiting...

You’ve always been pretty
Yes
And I think you know it
Too
But that’s okay.
From the first
Moment, oh so long ago,
My eyes fell upon
You
And there was no other.
Nothing else
Could ever compare.
You’re not perfect.
Sure.
Quirks, I’ve been told
But no matter
My heart is sold.
Bought and paid for by
You.
The sunset is waiting.
Let’s go,
My Volkswagen Beetle.

wrote this three months before fulfilling my thirteen year dream of owning a VW Beetle.  Some dreams don't die.  :)

Friday, September 6, 2013

Truth

There are few things in life more captivating than witnessing the birth of a realization. Whether or not the truth has been known to you, when you see it dawn in another’s eyes, a life begins anew. In that moment a passion is born that can change the walk of a person. Unfortunately, over time, familiarity to the idea can cause a gradual indifference and it can seemingly lose worth. When a new truth becomes an old truth, it becomes no less true. Truth does not diminish over time, only the perception of it. We must never discourage the finding of truths by others, no matter the significance to us. It’s when the search for truth is ceased that hope is lost, and that is something I never plan on losing. 

Thursday, September 5, 2013

"Quiet Faith"

I wrote this a couple years ago from my desk at work. 

Quiet Faith

When the trees bathe in sadness
Dripping in the sun
The leaves are still, unmoving
They and silence, one
But before all hope is lost
Sun dims in defeat
The wind has returned at last
Pain knocked from its seat
The trees dance with excitement
Overwhelmed with love
The friends are reunited
Blessings from above
So days when the air is still
The sun's rays beat down
Trees will wait with quiet faith
The wind will come 'round

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

It's been a long time coming

I suppose my first post should be somewhat of an introduction.  You might want to know whose ramblings you've come across and decide for yourself whether they're worth the time of sorting through.  

My name is Amy and I write things.  Sometimes those things are in the form of poetry, a whimsical attempt at understanding this life and what it has to offer.  Other times they may be essays exploring the crazy and fantastical world around me.  Or it might be short stories that demand their characters be shared to live on in the imaginations of others long after its words are written.

I've been writing for a long time.  Well, when you're twenty-five, anything more than ten years is long.  Since I was eleven words have floated around in my head in search for a notepad to cling to.  That being said, this blog will not merely present new thoughts but also past musings as well.  I've kept everything I've ever written so that I can see my progress and appreciate how far I've come.  It's been fun and I'm excited to finally share it with the world.

Thanks for coming.